So it’s been well over a year since I last posted. I dropped the ball. The reason why I started this blog in the first place was to be held accountable for all my lifestyle changes and to have a sounding board on where to be able to steam all my frustrations, successes and failures, but as just said, I dropped the ball. I had been consumed with “fitness”. What to eat, when to work out, always planning for the next day and definitely not enjoying the results of all my hard work. I couldn’t find a balance between living a healthy lifestyle and a normal life. I was burned out, so I stopped and said to myself that I just needed a month or two to unwind and then I would be able to get back on track. Obviously that didn’t happen.
Since my last post in April of 2018, I have gone back to my unhealthy habits, stopped working out and have put on all and maybe more weight back. I can’t be sure how much weight I’ve gained back because I’ve been afraid to step on that scale. My self confidence is back at an all time low which affects not only my professional life but my personal one as well. Not feeling confident about how you look and imagining what people think of you only causes me to retreat more and not want to go out and be seen.
Not all has been bad. My partner and I have started our own Interior Design and Home Staging business, which we love but seeing as we both still have another full time job it’s added a lot of stress and taken lots of time. I want out business to be successful and we’re dedicating a lot of time and resources into making it so, but as I’ve mentioned on previous post, stress only adds to my bad habits since I am an emotional eater. I eat everything in front of me. Food comforts me, but at the same time it’s only a momentary moment of comfort because right afterwards I feel so ashamed. It’s a vicious cycle.
The reason why I decided to resume my blogging is the same as it was in the beginning. I need to be held accountable and putting these words on a public platform (even if no one reads them) is a big thing. I am vulnerable and flawed but I can do better. I have to do better!
We are getting ready to sell our home here in League City and move to Galveston. I am really looking forward to the move but selling and moving can be stressful. Now is the time to refocus and re energize my health goals and start again. My challenge this time around will be to find that balance so that I don’t feel burned out again or feel like this journey has taken over my life.
I plan to get some help from a nutritionist this time around and see how that goes. Food is what I struggle with the most. I like food, I like to eat and I know it’s stupid to say I want to lose weight without having to restrict myself so much but I know there’s a way to make that work. I will start working out again 2-3 times a week, but I think that this time around I really need to get my eating habits under control if I want to be successful at achieving and maintaining a healthy weight.
Please stay tune as I move forward with this journey, AGAIN!
Luis 2.0 begins now.
Until next time!